My name is Nicole and I am a survivor of Narcissistic abuse. After a 12 year relationship I was discarded the end of May 2020.

I understand what you are going through. I was you not very long ago.  

I was always told that I had a "broken picker," so when I met my narcissist, I was even more determined to make the relationship work. I focused all my energy and resources to try to make that person happy. I was so determined to make it work, that I would do anything. I longed to have the perfect relationship- or at least make it look perfect to the outside world. I would bend over backwards, I would make the excuses, and I would change my own to beliefs to suit someone else. I wanted so hard to believe that in all the chaos I would matter. Not the case. I could never matter in the eyes of a narcissist. I could never be special. I could only be supply. The one who fills the tank over and over and over, until I had nothing else to give. And, when the tank was empty, he found someone else. It's the playbook. It's not us, it's just what it is. 

This site is not only to get past the discard, but to let you grow into yourself and unlock the true potential that you have always had. 

My awakening has sparked a journey to heal my mind, my body, and my soul. It gave me purpose. To help guide you through your journey of awakening. You don't have to do this alone. I am here to help.​​​